breathe
its been a really rough past few days. number ONE, my modem stuffed up and i couldnt go online. i got SO upset about it. number TWO, i've been getting really tired really easily these days - could be hormonal. number THREE, i'm seriously broke. i'm so broke its not funny. i still have rent for 3 weeks to pay for and bills and what not. and after that i'll be left with only a few hundred. how am i going to feed myself?? oh GOD! with the rising cost of living in nz you'd think the government would have some sense to increase our allowance so we can just survive. bloody fuck. a HUGE chunk of our monthly allowance goes straight to accommodation (what if there's 5 weeks to pay for in a month? we'll be around $200 short for that month. think march, july, august. thats about $600 short) and that leaves us with about $400 for everything else.
it doesnt fucking help that we're getting the book allowance late in the year. who in the fucking right state of mind would issue out a fucking book allowance in the middle of the fucking year?? the nz term starts in fucking february NOT september. so if you give us the money in july, are you fucking expecting us to starve?
sure, the other option is to work. but FUCK. when you're constantly under surveillance like us by a uni rep who wont let us work more than 12 fucking hours a week, what the fuck are you going to earn? YEAH, 12 HOURS. TWELVE HOURS!
oh the poor life of a student. watch me live off instant noodles, which i'm already doing.
thank you SO much for giving us JUST ENOUGH to live on. JUST ENOUGH.