less than 3 weeks to go - and i'm absolutely terrified
its the 7th of feb, first day of the chinese new year. tis the year of the rat, so happy chinese new year to everyone who's celebrating. and to everyone else who isnt, join in the fun. the fireworks went off before midnight and continued till about 1.30 am here. my parents are staying overnight at kampung to try avoid the fireworks. but guy fawkes is NOTHING compared to chinese new year. NOTHING AT ALL.
my flight back to auckland is on the 26th of feb. thats about 18 days left.
and i'm absolutely terrified.
i know i'll be ok, but its just so hard to go through. the only way i know how to deal with being apart is to distract myself. keep myself busy with school and work. but its the little things that can make you feel lonely. you know? simple things like sharing a meal. or getting knocked out by wasabi. holding hands....thats all i'm divulging, the rest is confidential.
but my point is this: 8 months apart can feel extremely long at times. looking back makes it all seem short, but while you're going through it, it just feels like forever.
there are times when you come home and you're ABSOLUTELY exhausted cause there was work, on top of a few hours worth of lectures and tutorials, bills to pay, laundry to be done, the room needs to be cleaned, and things go vanishing in your room (dont ask me why but my things just manage to do that - i lost brand new lipstick recently, and am still upset about it. especially since it was QUITE pricey. rm48 from the body shop. go get it for me if you like. the shade is something with the word ginger in it), assignments to finish etc etc etc etc.
and you fall asleep eating.
you are THAT exhausted.
just makes being apart seem harder..and more lonely.
i dont know how i'm going to deal with it this time around.