its raining outside
its a lazy sunday afternoon and its raining outside. nothing particular to blog about but i AM still coughing, boo.
watched cloverfield last night. and i think...NOT BAD. i'd like to watch the sequel or prequel or what they're releasing next. just out of curiosity. i wouldnt say i'm a fan, but it does interest me. although i did get a headache watching the movie because of how shaky it was.
aside from that, i may have been provoking the wrath of the parents because:
A) i have gone missing for the past two weeks
A) i have gone missing for the past two weeks
B) i missed church
ohshitohshitohshit. well, maybe i've brought it upon myself. but seriously. since living on my own in auckland, i've gotten so used to just doing things i wanna do. and i dont really like living with my parents. i dont mind it. but i dont like it.
update on my kitty cat: he's doing fantastic. he has put on most, if not all. the weight he lost as a result of being poisoned. he walks and runs better now. coordination has improved. and he's more active. eating a lot more too. all that said, he still cant jump down and land on his feet. but aside from that little detail, he's doing amazingly well. and he's such a good cat.
MOVING ON....
i've come to realise now that since i've left kuching about a year ago to study in auckland, things have changed around here. some subtle changes, some may-jah. i know the maybank next to my church has moved across the road, along with the bakery that was next to it. the spot where they used to be has been bought over by a new fast food outlet, which has chicken that i'm looking forward to. we now have two malls. there are so many of these male crossdressers now that popped out of nowhere..(and the scary thing is that sometimes i cant tell till iain points them out.) i dont have dogs anymore. my neighbour's dog has gotten fat, but is still such a sweetie. (her name's Patsy)
other things that have changed include, what i would like to call, GROUP DYNAMICS. and with this i'm referring to how groups interact and bond etc etc. basically your friends lah. ok? over time, its practically inevitable that this should change. but how drastic it is, can be pretty shocking. and scary.
i'm still very close to the bunch of people i choose to be close with. i still keep in touch with former schoolmates. i cant just cut them off, we grew up together and we still have good times hanging out. some of them have moved elsewhere to work or continue studying, but i think its really special how we still keep in touch. i miss some of them very much cause i havent seen them in a long while. (the ukraine bunch :P )
but there are some...acquaintances, shall i say (since i was never very close to them) who have apparently made a huge change. i dont mean to come across as talking bad about them, but what the hell happened?? and i know i dont know everything thats going on about them so who am i to judge ya da ya da i'm such a nosy bitch i should shut up but this is my fucking blog so go get a life and laugh a little. but i really do remember them as being a fun bunch. a fun bunch that could hang out and enjoy lots of laughs just talking.
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED??
its like all the happiness (or sugar) got sucked out of them and now all thats left is a bunch of sombre.......ADULTS. you know? all jaded and bitter and...just not fun. christ. i've seen them about town on several occasions. and where's the happiness and light heartedness that i remembered them for? what kinda alien invaded the earth, planted his seed in them that took over their body? cause that really looks like whats happened. and its scary!
if thats what its like to grow up, i dont think i want to.
and its not like you cant have fun being an adult either. NOR is there anything wrong if you were to have fun growing up.
if you were to ask me now, what i'd like to do.
i would tell you
"i want to be a writer and bake in my free time. possibly both for money. and travel. and be happy"
be happy!
should we administer a dose of HAPPY intravenously to all sombre adults out there? i say AYE.