AAAAAAAAARGH!!
well i cleared up some money i owe this place with the landlady this morning. and everything will be alright.
HERE's THE SHITTIEST NEWS I'VE RECEIVED ALL DAY. the marks for langtchng 101 are out and...how shall i put this. i havent seen scores like that for myself since..oh i dunno, my secondary school days. hows about the first time i look the AS papers? well, you get the rough idea. i pass but just barely.
GOODBYE HONOURS DEGREE. a B- average student, i am not.
part of me wants to laugh thinking "oh god, dUH..you practically didnt go for any classes and didnt even have the book for it - whaddaya expect?"
the other part of me is thinking "jesus christ - you're in uni and sponsored. yadayadayada"
i think its pretty obvious which side of me i'm listening to.
then iain's words came back to haunt me. "just dont fail it ok, you dont want to have to repeat a course you dont like".
i think this is symptomatic of my intellectual vanity, if you can call it that. if i dont find what i'm learning to be interesting or challenging, i dont bother. i'm sure most of you know by now how common-sense i found the course to be. well, evidence of this vanity and my disposition towards how interesting or challenging what i'm learning is...can be seen in how i studied ADD MATHS in secondary school...PHYSICS was another one. but i liked bio and chem (chem more than bio) so i studied a little for that...then came the a-levels. it was practically focused on LIT and SOCIOLOGY for me, and it was a SCREW YOU!! to maths. i had to map out how to score the most points in the math papers based on mark weightage and predicting what topics were most likely to come out (i'm quite good at spotting exam questions like that).
lesson of the day - uh...study what you like and if you cant, you're as screwed as me.