the essay is due WHEN??
GAH! all this while i thought it was due on friday, but when i checked my planner again, its due tomorrow! GOD DAMN. how inconvenient. its not impossible, pull an all nighter. it should be ok. but what irks me is how DRY that particular course is. think DR FRASIER CRANE..its about cognitive processes, how people learn, and the various THEORIES involved. oh GOD. and what these theories have to say about cognition. jeeeeesus. i prefer doing things that are TANGLIBLE. at least i can see what i'm doing. rather than theorizing. know what i mean?
i think i'm really addicted to the chocolate chip cookies from the bakery across the road. i think i'll go get more later. they tend to sell things cheap after 3 or 4 or something for clearance. sweet no?
so anyways, lemme massacre something here. i just found on somebody's BLOGO..that somebody is desperate to get hitched. MARRIED. the gifts, the rings, the clothes, the fuss over you, etc etc. oh if life were a jane austen novel. there's so many things running through my head that i dont know where to begin. ok, maybe a list would help.
- i can understand in austen's time when marriage was such a definitive thing for women. back then, if you had to work for your money, you were not in the privileged lot. and learning was something done for leisure. as was reading and so on. and even then there was a hierarchy between what job you held and so on and so forth. WHAT I'M TRYIN TO SAY HERE...is that in this day and age, women are being given the privilege to get an education and be independent on so many levels. financially, intellectually, politically (we can vote now), we can drive and own property. we no longer need to wait for a man to provide for us. gone are the days when we were passed from our father to the man who would take over.
- marriage is so much more than the wedding. just like a relationship is more than just holding hands and saying i love you. its about a connection between two people. to sustain that connection and keep it going is far more important than a legal contract - which is basically what marriage is. its a freakin contract. you can get a civil ceremony where you just sign the damn thing and you're man and wife. no need for flowers, or cake, or whatever.
- if you're just fixated on the pretty diamond and white gold ring, the beautiful dress, the cake and what band to play at your reception or whatever (i'm just pulling things off the top of my head) then, girl, i'm sorry but..wtf?! you can buy yourself a pretty ring, you can buy yourself a pretty dress and you can bake your own damn cake! i can refer you to rachel, she makes damn good cakes. i doubt she'd do it for free tho wink wink :P
i'm not denying that the idea is romantic, you know, a great wedding, and you live happily ever after. but GEEZ, its time you stopped reading cinderella and sleeping beauty or whatever. in my version of the little mermaid, the poor thing failed and became "foam upon the sea" and became an angel. i read that story, and good GOD do you know how many marriages end in divorce?
face facts - so many reasons cause that divorce statistic. blame it on wormen getting a career of their own, clashing priorities or just plain ol' promiscuity. whatever.
GIRL...GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE CLOUDS AND PUT YOUR FEET ON THE GROUND. and WAKE UP! a wedding will last a day. the honeymoon a bit longer, but after that comes the rest of your life. you'll be a wife maybe a mother. thats a shit load of responsibility. A SHIT LOAD. it IS daunting. because it should be. its a serious commitment that requires lot of time and energy, accountability and responsibility, trust and compromise, forgiveness and love. LOVE. love beyond the holding hands and flowers and the i-love-you's. beyond that. and it needs to continue to grow despite the stretch marks you'll get as you age, despite the fact that you'll get wrinkles and crows feet, despite the saggy tits and creaky joints. you get my point?? its as much work as it is fun. as much. and if you're not having fun and its just work, something's wrong. and if its all fun and no work, something's wrong too.
well, maybe its just me, since in this day and age, the validity of the phrase "till death do us part" can be questioned.
maybe its time to watch INTOLERABLE CRUELTY.