tossed salad and scrambled eggs
i miss watching frasier. the title is from the song that kelsey grammer sings at then end of the show. and he's the guy who does the voice for sideshow bob on the simpsons. remember the crazy guy with the funny hair who wants to kill bart? i couldnt picture a better choice for sideshow bob.
i was having a really bad day today and wanted to have a jab at everything from ppl who think they're photogenic but are seriously NOT and NEED TO KNOW THAT as well as the fact that some poses do NOT work for everyone. and maybe, just maybe, you look better with glasses. AND photoshopping your pics to throw the contrast and brightness ridiculously off balance doesnt really work. to people who think friends are disposable...its like ppl's patience. i think i'll let The Great Doctor Perry Cox from Scrubs handle this :
“Okay, think of what little patience I have as, oh, I don't know, your virginity. You always thought it would be there, until that night Junior Year when you were feeling a little down about yourself and your pal Kevin, who just wanted to be friends, well, he dropped by and he brought a copy of About Last Night and a four-pack of Bartels & James and woo hoo hoo, it was gone forever - just like my patience is now.”
why, thank you doctor cox. lets just say i've stopped caring about a certain someone. its a strange decision that came to me. i didnt exactly make it, it just crossed my mind and it was as clear as day. i just dont care anymore. and honestly, i may regret this decision later on, say a few years from now, but honestly, if she's going to treat me the way i've been treated, why should i even want to be friends with her? just so i can be chucked aside again? no thank you. find someone else to do that to.
it all started simply enough..with me thinking i dont really care where she moves to next year, to me thinking it might not be so bad if we didnt live together. to the realisation that i dont really care anymore. you want to be a one-man island, go right ahead. apparently you never needed friends to begin with. i dont even know why i ever bothered.
and right after i decide i dont care anymore, she asks me to do something together. and says i dont have to be obliged to say yes. geez. what are you, half-heartedly asking people to hang out? what IS that? i mean honestly, what IS that? if you dont really want to, dont even bother. you're just making a fool out of both of us.
there's some heavy self-censorship going on here. i know the best way to get this off my chest would be to tell her myself, but hell..what difference is that going to make? if its not going to help her, why the hell should i even try?
bottom line is, i just dont care anymore. thanks for all the good times, they were fun while they lasted. i hope you have a good life. i'm out of patience and i dont see why i should care for you anymore. i dont know if its your own arrogance holding you back or some sort of fear, but i've had enough of trying to figure you out. i cant believe you would treat a friend that way. and frankly, is this how you repay my friendship? why should i even bother to want to maintain such a relationship that feels incredibly one sided? why put time and effort into it? what for?
i dont know about you but i personally dont enjoy a non-speaking relationship, friendship or otherwise. its a stinking pile of bullshit, thats what it is.
i dont care about whatever reason why you treated me the way you did. arrogance, fear, hesitance, being occupied...you dont think i tried to accommodate those ideas and try to be understanding? you should have made the effort as well. if everyone has to come to you to have a conversation with you, thats just plain arrogant. you're old enough to get over being shy. and if you're still not, deal with it. and GET OVER IT! its not like i didnt try to reach out to you. felt like i was talking to a damn wall the whole time. its called RECIPROCITY when it comes to carrying a conversation. its a social skill that may come in handy. learn it. might do you some good.
i dont care about why you are the way you are anymore. thats you and its not for me to judge. but when you treat your friend this way, i've had enough. and i dont see why i need to care anymore.
and your laugh is damn annoying. that nervous laugh when you dont want to answer a question people ask you. what IS that?
you got issues and you need to sort them out and get over them before you start dragging the rest of us down with you.