anybody else feel stupid here too?
so i've got a few songs in my playlist that i have absolutely no idea what they're singing about. a few meaning...maybe 10. i dont keep count. they're not in english so..i just nod along. kinda feel stupid at times cause i sing along (as best i can) but i doubt i got the words right.
its 5 minutes to midnight now...and i'm quite bored out of my skull. sure i could study for that test this thursday, but oh GOD it gets so boring. esp when its theories to do with cognitive processes (GRIT TEETH....)
there was a meeting today regarding accommodation for next year. apparently, we're top priority for the university to find accommodation for. well, DUH. since there was a contract, we all have dollar signs flashing above our heads and any complaints from us would just be..well, undesired. on one hand its great that we are so prioritised like this. we'll always be taken care of, and etc etc. on the other hand, it kinda is spoonfeeding and babying us. i dont know whether i like this situation or not.
i was talking to one of my friends here and she's adamant about staying in railway. she's been staying here since she got here and intends to do so till she finishes her studies methinks. now if that works for her, that is great. fantastic. but I THINK (and i think a great many things) that for ME, i dont want to be in just one place for the whole time i'm here. it just limits me. and i feel like i didnt really have the chance to get my own place. (MY OWN PLACE!!!)
i mean...i dunno. the only thing stopping me from getting uni accommodation (and i wouldnt mind staying in uni accommodation next year, they've got pretty decent places) is the $500 bond. i cant afford that! i just paid for my ticket home. and i cant afford anything this coming week. oh god i hate being this poor.
i know that pablo has stayed here for FOUR YEARS...and in the same room too. NOW. what is that like?
i dont want to have such a comfort zone that i dont want to venture out of.
ONTO MORE GIRLY NEWS...
i like how my shoulders look now :P they're more defined somewhat. yes, yes roll your eyes, i'm vain, thank you. but i think since i started working and have to lift stuff and bend a lot and at times get on all fours..(ugh)
i dont like how my hair is growing out. i want to do something with it but i have no idea yet.
i should really stop eating all these little treats cause they're taking a toll on my face (OH NO...) a little peanut butter and chocolate on bread, BACLAVA (MMMMM), little snacks, sausage rolls, more processed food, handmade chocolate (MMmmmm)..well. whatever. i'm drinking tons of water and peeing every hour or so and i'm doing a facial mask later.
i want to grow my nails out and start using nail polish but i cant keep my nails too long for my job. they tend to tear the gloves easier.
I WANNA DO MY HAIR BUT I'M TOO POOR...
leave me be now..i cry in my vain misery. boo hoo