i just dont know what to do with my self
i'm actually just trying this out at uni..we've got a 3 hour gap from our last tutorial till our next. and since i cant go online on my own laptop in my own room, guess i'll do it here in the international student lounge. since its about lunch hour, its quite full. and quite noisy.
about my last entry...
i dont know what to do. but if it persists, i dont know how much i can take. and i dont know for how long. but ending it is the furthest thing from my mind. what i do know is that this should be a temporary thing. but it doesnt feel like it.
and july...because i promised, i will try. but it wont be easy. i'll only get my allowance in may/june. i have no idea how to pull this off but i'll try all i can. operation Convince Daddy To Let Me Come Back has already begun. i dont intend to ask them for money cause with the conversion rate and what not, that's just entirely impossible. i dont know when my exams will be ending, but hopefully they end early so that i can leave earlier.
i dont know what else to say.
i love him more than anything else, and he is the best thing to happen to me. i still dont know what i did to deserve him, and being with him makes me so happy. and i feel so secure when i'm with him. he's my equal and that makes it so easy to relate on so many things.
but taking so long hurts.