who is that running up and down the hall??
somebody's probably on a sugar-rush or a caffeine-high or both running up and down the hall tonight. i'm sure its fun, but its fucking noisy. CUT IT OUT!!
weekend was alright, stayed over at a family friend's house over at east auckland. and my god this country looks like a golf course. its pretty, yeah, but i think i'm getting tired of how pretty it all is. i mean, the same thing happened to me in langkawi..hmm, where's my blue cheese?
back to the weekend, the place was quite a drive from the city. and it doesnt help that she has a very bad sense of direction and the GPS thingy kept going "turn left" and the roads were hilly and her own sons were getting frustrated and shouted at her. needless to say, bad driving=nauseous allison. but she's a very nice lady, very sporting and very very talkative...VERY. her house is quaint and cosy. 3 bedroom house, single storey and VERY EXPENSIVE. rent is $400 a week and to buy, $400,000. but its, in a word, lovely. there's flowers and plants all around, and i can tell it'd be beautiful in spring. i cant help but think the former owner may be a practitioner or believer in...witchcraft or superstitions. there were wild rose bushes in front of the house and lavender. or maybe its just me. her house is a 5 minute stroll to the beach, and some of the houses there cost millions. oh, and she's a great appreciator of food. meaning, good food at her place. good food meaning MEAT!
and yes, i went to church. it was alright. communion was very similar to SIB. i had to lie about going to church here :P the church gave out crunchie bars for, seemingly, any occasion. birthdays, anniversaries, gaining citizenship, first time visitors, visitors. that led me to take a step back and question how i structure my belief system.
there seems to be a lot of gray area. i cant say for sure if i completely believe everything that was taught to me as a child but there seems to be some comfort in that because its familiar. its like a security blanket. some of the principles are...good. like forgiving one another and being patient and what not. but what religion or belief system doesnt have that? even the hare krishna's have that. besides, i already think religion is a very effective way of controlling people. covert method of control. know what i mean?
i think i like olive oil. and mint sauce. mm..yum. and blue cheese. the food here's excellent!
there's this HUGE shopping area she brought me to and its fantastic! i love it. its not huge like the KLCC/One Utama huge. its huge as in its spread out and the stores are...well, huge. pity its on the other side of auckland. she said i'm welcome to visit and spend the weekend anytime tho, hehe.
seems to me the PR process is a lot more tricky than i thought. but there are a lot of benefits to it. namely uni fees (iain, this is going to hurt) if you're not PR, lets say you have to pay $18000 in whatever fees. if, however, the magical fee-lessening letters of P and R apply to you, you only pay $3000. then there's the issue of permanent/temporary PR and citizenship.
she said it'd be easy for me to get a job here next time since my degree's from AU..premier uni and all. plus the need to teach english to many many migrants in the city. PLUS the high pay teachers get here. sweet deal no?
there's a lot of things i want to say. but i dont know if i have the patience to type it out.
its easy to resort to throwing tantrums and sulking, isnt it? its hard to be mature (ugh) and grown up (oh god) and think things reasonably and rationally ( this sounds like moral class). its even harder to put other things and other needs and other people's needs ahead of your own, after you think things through as objectively as possible..especially if you can be as bitchy and selfish and spoilt as i can. teeth-grittingly hard. some may call it character building or the coming of age or whatever romanticised version of "growing pains" they can come up with. i find it teeth-grittingly hard. painful at times. but the whole point of this paragraph is that once you've viewed something as objectively as you could have, and you realised there are other needs and other issues greater than your own, and this time you know, you really know what the right thing to do is; you know what you have to do to be fair and if you dont do it, you'll never be able to undo the regret of not being selfless when it counted. the ability to see beyond yourself - its a lot of patience and a lot of understanding and a lot of trusting. a lot of seeing beyond yourself. its teeth-grittingly hard. especially when it involves people you care about.
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here was this place i went to today called...i forgot. it starts with a B. i know it does..briscoes, thats it. they had the coolest candles. coffee scented ones too. and i was so tempted to buy them, but then i thought...nah. its a great place for house things. furniture and kitchen stuff and decorations are all there. and its very modern designs, vibrant colours (if you like) or...anything and everything you need for a house is there.
i sound like a housewife getting all excited about that.
there was a fire somewhere in town..some sailor's home. there was a blaze on early saturday morning. kinda creepy considering me and aud walked by the area on friday night. and it was fine. are we the harbinger or disaster? cool..
iain said venu doesnt spin at soho anymore, only during certain events. and it only hit me just now...where to feng tao then??
think i'm out of things to say at last.
kudos to all you people who have read to this point.
you must be so bored.
would you like some blue cheese?
its actually quite yummy.
aud thinks it tastes funny.
its all mine then...MINE.