nigglet.
cute isnt it? nigglet.
i am getting chubby.
i better tell my dad soon.
about mara, not about getting chubby.
he'd just laugh about me getting chubby.
about mara though, he'd be upset.
but i dont want to make him the reason for 9 years of my life spent doing something i dont like.
thats cowardice.
its not fair to him.
not fair to either one of us really.
so i'm just going to tell him tonight.
and if he wont hear any of it, at least i tried.
then i can really tell him "the only reason i'm doing this is for you".