well...its been about a week more or less since my last entry. so whats new with me?
LIFE SUCKS, as far as i can tell. we need to move again to the other dorm on the other side of campus. which is so lousy a decision cause i really like this current room. the view is nice, the chi is right, i pasted up nice pics on the wall, its quite isolated and its QUIET (my roommates and i understand the importance of quietness very well, believe you me) thing is, its so abrupt. they annopuced last night that we have to move this weekend, and we're leaving this damn place forever in about 7 weeks. but, kicking and screaming and crying and whining, we still have to move, like it or not.

evilcollege*evilcollege*e vilcollege

my knee doesnt hurt so much now, but i get the feeling it might come back again. and my heart really aches, as in physically, if i think about things that are worrying me. i might need to get my eyes checked soon, and i need a haircut. and a dye job. i wont mind having a cane, as long as it looks really slick and cool and is just oh-so-chic..the kind where i can enter the room with a look and pull off the "Release the hounds" thing.. i dunno, but i just thought it'd be cool. kinda lame huh..my friends said it reminded he of Johnny Depp's take on Willy Wonka, haha :P

lifesucks*lifesucks*lifes ucks*lifesucks

there's a problem with the study leave crap. i booked my flight back already, but there is NO OFFICIAL STUDY LEAVE. how? i probably have to write a letter to stupid admin asking for 4 days leave. i hope i can get it. im so tired here.

i mean, just give me some past year papers and the answer scheme and i'll study at home. that's practically what we're doing here.

i feel so drained.

on the other hand, i'm back to square one with how i feel about W. do i like him, do i not.. do i want him, do i not. do i love him, do i not.

i feel like a zombie. last night i slept way past three. i think i spent more time tossing and turning in bed than actually sleeping, and i had to get up at 6 something. normally, i wouldnt be making such a big fuss, but because i feel so drained, and i need rest (not sleep, but rest) and the trials are next week plus we have to move...and for the past few days i've been spending hours and hours typing out sociology papers (and when i say papers, i mean at least 5 sheets per paper that take up around 2 hrs per paper). at least i get paid for the papers..rm2 per paper. not bad..and so far i've made rm12. so thats 6 papers, 2 hours worth of typing each.

my friends and i sneaked a peek at the sociology junior's papers..and we realised, we used to write like that, and the most you can get for that style of writing is a C. its very possible to get a D or an E or a U (for Ungraded) even. for them, they have less time here than we do. so all the best to them.

banexams*banexams*banexam s

i'm worried about my studies. my sociology seems to be ok, consistent. Maths? oh, Lord have mercy. and Lit? we just found out the teacher left out one very important assessment objective. meaning, the examiners will be looking for one component in our answers that we have not been trained in. and i get the feeling its one of the things that differentiates between an A and a B student. i got an A in my november resit for Lit, but if i dont do well this time, my final grade will be a B or even a C. i cant afford to get a B or a C for lit, since thats reserved for my maths! minimum grade to get to auckland is A,B,B. for lit, i think the highest i can get is a B. sociology, provided i can remember all the stuff and scribble it down in 3 hours, i think i can manage an A. and for maths? lets look at the components.. Stats 1? no practice, no past years, almost no revision at all. Stats 2? an A without careless mistakes. Pure 1? quite possibly a B, but a weak one at that..and finally, Pure 3? oh GOD. the only way i can think of doing decently well enough for maths is to do very VERY well in Stats 1 and 2 and Pure 1 since my Pure 3 is a death wish.

i just did a quiz online about antony and cleopatra and i got 21/25 correct. 84% Whoo-HOO! not bad considering i didnt finish reading the text.

i'm worried about my roommate. she's one of the closest friends i've had, and she said she's "snapped" under all this exam strain...i hope we'll both get the study leave. for her sanity as well as my own. but she wants to get the leave right after the trials..i dont know if we'll be allowed to go back that early, but if we can then i'm asking for a flight change, and leaving the mainland, back to the island i call home.

gohome*gohome*gohome

the other day i stole 3 items while shopping.. the largest amount so far. and worth not paying too. haha. its fun. but i cant choplift at home so much, cause there are so many damn shop assistants. i'm not to concerned about CCTV, cause, they might have all this security, and sensors, but i still managed to get past them. but i'm trying not too be too cocky about this. i do run the risk of gtting caught, and knowing how crappy the police force is in this country and how abusive they can be, i'm gonna be watching my back carefully.

evilpolice*evilpolice*evi lpolice

COUNTRY'S GOING TO THE DOGS, PEOPLE! now there will be laws on public decency regarding laws of public displays of affection cause a couple was "caught" holding hands and hugging in a park.maybe those jackasses who want to make this law arent getting any action of their own...or maybe they're doing it all wrong and dont get why other people like it so much. hence, the jealousy and inferiority. hence they outlaw it.

my opinion on this issue, and on the issue about media and press freedom as well as other forms of self expression lies in this: WE DONT MAKE ALL SWIMMING POOLS TWO INCHES DEEP JUST BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE CAN SWIM.  that was taken from my sociology book. and it makes sense. you cant determine things that are so subjective like public decency or acceptable forms of displays of affection based on the "lowest common denominator" concept. you cannot just cater for the most conservative in the country. plus the police here are MESSED UP!! my friend was asked for a bribe because she and her boyfriend were kissing at a traffic light. they were NOT breaking any laws.

people seem to forget that things change over time. deviance and unacceptable behaviour is relative to the time and place of the situation. just over a century ago it was unacceptable for women to wear short skirts or pants. now homosexuality is legal in some countries. in some places, taking multiple spouses is "morally defecient" but in some cultures, its ok.

COUNTRY'S GOING TO THE DOGS!!

its good friday. so happy good friday..