reality bites
so i was busy ranting and raving in my last entry about a jackass of a teacher. i still think he's abig bully who's secretly afraid i'll voodoo him. or maybe that i'll chop off his head while he's unaware. last night my roommates played cards and it was FUN! so much fun, and we watched the movie SLACKERS..all in all, it was a nice mid-week break. i mean, we're barely even halfway through our first week in college and we have to put up with so much crap.
today, mr W has once again joked about me and him being a couple. and i finally told him what i've been itching to say after all this while but had no idea how to. i guess i couldnt hold it in anymore. its a funny thing, i'm so scared of getting together but at the same time i really like him and dont want to lose him. so (and this was all dont in a text message sent in class) i told him what i had to say and he hasnt replied. maybe cause he cant reply or doesnt know how to reply or what to reply...
well, i feel much MUCH better now that i've told him. its like a huge weight off my heart. before this i was so afraid of hurting him, but now i realised there is no way i can keep tip-toeing on eggshells cause i might be leading him on and leading myself on. he has asked me if i love him...i've decided i either love him more than i think i do or i dont love him at all. and now that i've told him what i've been itching to say, i think i'm ready to let my guard down and love him. (omigod, al??) but that's if what he said was really true. if he really did love me as much as he says he does, then...well, lets just see his response. if he can reads this (heheh, sudden wave of awkwardness) um..hi *sheepish smile*