its funny how when you have things to look forward to, life somehow feels better. this morning there was a water shortage in college (read:no water at all) its a good thing my roomie and close friend wakes up early otherwise i would have had to brush my teeth and wash my face at the DS in front of people.

anyways, i just found out my senior wants to come down and spend her summer here! and i'm so looking forward to seeing her again, hopefully i can. i know we're not headed for the UK, but i think my friend and i will figure out a way to go globetrotting :) WOW! i dont know why but that has really put me in a good mood. PLUS the holidays are less than 2 weeks away! OMIGOD, i am so excited!

i just read on my other friend's blog that he misses his girlfriend so much to the point where he was "bedridden".. (allison chokes back laughter, snorts)i'm so tempted to burst out laughing (BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!) but i'll grow up, and go "Aww..how sweet"

anyways, over the weekend i was supposed to go to an orphanage to visit them and all that, plus we were supposed to give them things they needed (clothes, books, toys etc etc) and when i asked my classmate how it went, he said he was disappointed in the orphanage etc etc. its sad, cause they dont have a vision for themselves, as in what they want to do or be, all they think about is finishing their form 5, leaving the orphanage when they're 18 and getting a job. when he was talking to them, they asked him how old he was, where he was doing..you get the idea. he told them he was 20 and still studying. to them it was such a foreign concept to still be studying at 20. they asked him how old he will be when he starts working, and when he said 24, they couldnt wrap their minds around that.

come to think of it, they have a very papmpered, sheltered life. they get donations like crazy, free toys, lots of money from celebrities and what not, next month they're going on holiday. and then when they're 18, they have to leave the orphanage and move into the real world. THEN WHAT? they have to fend for themselves, which they never had to do before or have been taught how to do. and, i dont know about what other people think, but this makes them very vulnerable.

i know i'm not in a position to criticise since i didnt go, but what is happening to these orphans is actually making them helpless. i know they've had a hard life, but is this the way to really help them? according to my classmate, the eldest guy there was 16, meaning he has to leave the orphanage in 2 years or less. he hadnt given any thought as to what he wants to do when he leaves other than getting a job. and even that, he has no idea what he wants to do. he stopped schooling in primary 6. the rest of them are going to finish their secondary education, but..basically, the environment doesnt emphasise education and how important it is. my other classmate said the girls are aiming for menial jobs, at supermarkets and what not. i mean, they're aiming so low. they have no ambition, and i dont know who to place the blame for that on.

i know they've had a hard life, and are unfortunate cause they have no parents and what not..i can go on and on listing their misfortune and how unfair the universe has been to them

-->but how is pampering them and not encouraging them to look ahead and think for themselves going to help them?

i think the worse thing than not helping someone is to make them so dependent to the point they are made helpless.

thats why i dont give to beggars. i dont think it helps them.