i must sound like such a self absrbed Angelica Pickles BRAT..oh well. here's the thing about me: I AM VERY PARTICULAR ABOUT MY PRVACY. my family knows it and we've had quite a few bitter feuds when my privacy has been invaded . i cannot take it if someone just thinks they can help themselves to MY SPACE like its theirs. GEEzz..its called respecting people's boundaries. i thought its an unspoken code. So what happened al? well, the other day, SOF came to my room to borrow my charger for her phone. FINE, no problem. go ahead. she said she was going to take it and charge her phone elsewhere. FINE, GO AHEAD. at that time, me and miri-gal were about to go out for a walk, and she askd where we were going. NO REPLY..not a real one anyway. so then we're out on a walk and when i come back, i walk past my room and i hear SOF's voice in my room talking on the phone to someone when NOBODY is there..what the hell is she doing in the room when I am not in and when NONE of my roommates are there? hello?? what gave you the idea you could just waltz into the room and expect to be welcomed there, especially when I AM NOT AROUND?? by that time it was already almost 7. so miri-gal and i sneaked off to her room and waited SOF out. so then she does eventually leave the room and she walks past miri-gal's room, down to penang-gal's room as well (TO CHECK ON PEOPLE) and then leaves the floor. so i'm superbly pissed.and after showering, Roommate 1 tells me she feels unconfortable with SOF being in the room when none of us is around. later that evening i catch up with Roomate 2 who tells me that SOF has been in the room since about 5.30 pm. (almost 2 hours in my room??)so i had to tell SOF about this. but i am so mad at her i cant stand being in the room and i havent figured out what exacttly i want to tell her. i've got schoolwork to cope with, okay? it requires concentration. so i give her the cold shoulder. and i do tell her, there's something i need to talk to her about. but before i talk to her, i need to know exactly what i'm going to talk to her about. one of the issues was the room but there are other things too that have been building up. so i need time to figure it out. last night miri-gal and i went to get a drink in stupid ds and she was there with people. she shouts all the way across the ds "Allie, is that the momoe bracelet?" and i say "YA..." and she ways "I can see it from here". so i just shrug it off. what do i say? i already dont want to talk to her, and she put herself in that position where LOTS of people can see her and my reaction to her. she didnt have to talk to me, small talk or whatever. so whatever. miri-gal and i left and then later in my room as im organising my planner she comes in and asks about some petty stuff, and i give some petty answer. she says "you said you wanted to talk to me about something" and i say "yes, but not tonight". I WANTED TO SLEEP, DAMNIT. so she exits. then she comes back in.."Allie, can i talk to you?". FINE. "What's going on? how come you're being so cOLd?" and i tell her about the room thing, BUT, keep in mind, that is just the tip of the iceberg of things i want to say. and she goes on about how she didnt think it was a problm that she could just help herself to my room..i dont know what gave her that idea. la-di-da..then i tell her that that wasnt all i had to tell her. and then i told her it was cause sometimes i wanted to spend time with just miri-gal and penang-gal alone, and she said she was trying not to be so stifling. (GEEZ) and then she goes into how its so unfair for me to treat her that way and that its such a small thing to her. FINE, IF ITS SUCH A SMALL THING TO YOU, DONT BOTHER ABOUT IT. basically she just went on and on about herself and i just looked at her, cause I HAVENT THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO SAY TO HER. then she left the room without allowing me to say anything. thank you very much for your time, please show yourself out. and let me add that all this happened when Roomate 1 was asleep in the room. talk about bad timing. and since i can think a little clearly now, i think i shall list down the things i wanted to say to her, but never got around to thinking about it cause i'm so preoccupied doing differential equations! ALL THE STUFF I NEED TO SAY TO SOF: -dont help yourself to my room and my private space if nobody is around in the room and if i'm not in the room. -sometimes i want some alone time with miri-gal and penang-gal. these are the people with whom i feel i can let my guard completely down here. -do not enter my room after dinner time because i'll be getting ready to start studying, and if you're there, it just throws the momentum off. the chi is ruined and its very hard to get it back. -why is it that she must seem to strive for attention so badly? its bad enough she attracts attention on her own and i attract attention as well cause i'm so obviously different, why does she have to play on this? i just dont want to be noticed sometimes.(READ:do NOT yell to me across the ds) NO, i was not expecting you to read my mind, SOF because i meant to talk to you. and you know what, since you say its such a small thing to you, DONT BOTHER ABOUT IT. i have no problems with that. i've done it before and you know it. i'm being mean and i know it but its because i'm offended. i could have come to you in my own time, but you couldnt seem to respect that either, so whatever. if only you knew what SOF means..if only you knew what some of the girls really say about you..and its from some people you call your friends..and you would have never suspected them. if you only knew.

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