open sesame?
i have a very important blog entry and i have a very important point. why is it that some guys find it so hard to say I LOVE YOU but others can friggin' spout those words like its some sort of magic password into your pants? why dont you just say OPEN SESAME while you're at it? geez...
i have this amazing innate ability to sense when people dont like me or when everything i say and do is being watched, judged and evaluated.
and most times, if not all cause i cant think of the last time i was wrong, i'm right. because of that, i become more introverted...but other people may see it as being snobbish, anti-social, blur or whatever else they see their own inner self being reflected in my behaviour. i'm like a...whatsit...ARMADILLO. if i sense i'm being threatened i roll myself up and all you get on the outside is this hard, scaly impenetrable (and impregnable? 
)exterior. i stop talking much and i escape into my own world. i just stop participating. so pardon me. its my form of self-defense.
there are people in this world who can only feel better about themselves by comparing their strengths to other's weaknesses. and then there are others that have no tangible sense of humility at all but demand it in others. question is, WHY?
im not denying i make fun of other people either cause my closest friends will tell you otherwise. i do make fun, but to the point where its just unnecessary? and degrading? and done in spite? Gawd...i cant stand it when my mum and aunts do that..i dont need it from those around me.
if YOU are reading this and you know exactly what im talking about and what i mean, i have to say...I'M REPULSED. my instincts were right. superficial, pretentious and mean...it was all there for me to see.
end of the day people still like to see a little bit of humility.