back to reality
break was fun. lets talk about that. met up with so many old school friends and reconnected with others.
AND i met up with him, on the LAST night of my break, and i think i like him. a lot...and i think im nuts. he can be a bit of a jackass at times, but for the most of it, he's alright. :) what sucks is that i hardly ever get to see him. and i've just realised that i've never really gotten to talking to him..like TALKING cause if me and him happen to be alone, most probably it wont be talking thats happening. and even if i didnt have any feelings for him whatsoever, it wont change the fact that i like being around him.
thing is, i dont know if he likes me as much as i do him...yeah, as much as i do him. what a phrase :p its like i always have to clamour for his attention and he has to squeeze me in somewhere. or he can just squeeze me, i kinda like that. ok, i gotta stop this. AL, GET A GRIP! (that lil voice in my head just said "make SURE you get a good grip, girl".) AL, STOPPIT!! all i want from him is his time and attention..some affection thrown in there would be nice too. apparently his family is supposed to be pretty well off..thats what i hear. but i dont care how well off they are, it still sucks that i hardly ever see him. i like him - PERIOD.
I THINK IM NUTS.