money...
right now i'm on scholarship doing my a-levels in this hell hole of a college. and it really hit me that i'm wasting me time doingsomething that doesn't give me any joy or any peace. i love the subjects but the fact that i'm going to end up being a teacher working for this stupid organisation for at least 5 years makes me so depressed. i cannot stand the thought that i have to owe these freaks more of my life when they have already stolen so much from me.
the only way out is to quit after my a-levels and finish my education in a private college or something. problem? money. not only do i have to pay my current sponsor back for my a-levels, i have to come up with money to further my education. my parents seem to think that i want to be a teacher. in erality, i have NEVER ever mentioned any interest in teaching. i'm sure teachers out there find their job very fulfilling, but i dont want to teach, nor do i want to give it a shot. i hate sounding bratty but why should i waste my life with something i have utterly no interest in?
another possibility is to ask for a scholarship transfer. i dont know how willing my current sponsors are willing to take that into consideration, and i'm expecting lots of negotiations, paperwork, closed doors, dead ends, and probably more sleepless nights.
if anyone has any idea how to get myself untangled out of this mess ive gotten myself into, please PLEASE tell me.