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the past few days here in kuching has been really fun. mainly just been about hanging out with people that i havent seen in ages. and thats why its fun. now i was in a very foul mood this morning (dont ask why, just be glad its over now) and i thought i was going to rant and rave about everything and anything thats wrong in today's world, or at least mine. but a little turn of events during lunch with my family changed my mood.
now, lets get on to the whole issue i was going to blog about last time....
CAMWHORING/PHOTOGEDIK
yes, that was me last friday night. and yes it turned out to be not too bad a night to be out either. (PK I GRABBED THAT FROM YOUR BLOGGIE, THANKS!) now back to what i was saying...
i know i've mentioned this before about fugly-ass chicks who camwhore and shit. i've got nothing wrong against camwhoring...JUST GET IT RIGHT, K? photoshop the pics if you must (i know i sound OH so vain here) but if you dont look good, then why are you camwhoring in the first place?? SPARE US and just dont! but if you choose to do so, figure out what works for you and stick to it...christ.
vain rant aside...what else was i so pissed at today?
aahhh....there was church today. suffice to say i nodded off during the sermon. not that it wasnt interesting or anything, but i was sleepy (wonder why) and i wasnt feeling too good. i felt a little too warm and irritable. so, i wasnt exactly happy this morning.
WHY DO I GO TO CHURCH??
my decisions and how i am now, are not exactly aligned to how a completely church-ey person would be, or should live out their life...so i'm not going to half-ass religion or fake my faith by trying to be all christian and then do completely un-christian things. i dont see the point. some people may not agree with what my choice, (and yea i guess that would make me agnostic) but i dont want to be professing to a faith that requires a completely different lifestyle, and then be caught the exact opposites of what i should be doing. (see pic above) i'm not lying to anyone but myself...and perhaps my parents too.
its not to say that i'm going to be a completely immoral person just because i dont buy everything that's taught in church. morals has got nothing to do with it...or maybe it does. if religion and faith, which are so personal and should be based on personal choice, require commitment and what not, then it should happen completely on my own choosing. and it should be something that i am aware of. it needs to be beyond the worship albums, beyond the walls of the church and in my own conscious choices.
and i dont want to do that. i dont like the feeling of having a structure dictate so much of what i do. i just dont.
some people find their place in church and within the church society. well thats great for them. i really think thats great. if you can find your place in church and it gives you a sense of purpose then glory to God in the highest and all that. just dont impose it on others.
thats the ONE thing that puts me off about religion and faith. there's this need to impose it on others...whats it called..proseletyzing? is that even a word? i dont like that. and i dont appreciate these holier-than-thou people in church who seem to think they can judge your actions and your family too. excuse me, but that doesnt sound very christian.
i made some great friends in church, and thats...well, great. i'm not saying that every single christian out there is like that. there are some really genuine friends who are just happy to accept you as you are and go on their merry christian way without judgement. i just dont want to be one of those christians who says one thing and does another.
just because you go to church doesnt automagically make you a good person. and just because you dont go to church doesnt make you a bad person.
but why do i go to church? mainly to appease my parents. i only do this in kuching tho.. i mean my parents had such a hard time with my brother and cousin not going to church. my mama most. i just dont want to disappoint them. i know it means a lot to them, and if this helps them sleep better at night, (well they dont see me much over the week since i go out so much) then fine. i remember my ma getting a stomach ulcer once because of my brother, and i dont want her to go through that with me.
so...they've pretty much dictated my choice of tertiary education, my career for the five years after graduation and now i'm putting on a church-ey front for them.
oh god i miss living on my own.
11.24.07 (8:43 pm) [
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camwhoring...photogedik...
rest assured i'll return to write about this topic soon enough. its one that fascinates me enough. its now 5 am and i have to sleep. my love left to go home about an hour and a half earlier :P and i should get some rest too.
11.22.07 (12:54 pm) [
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god damn this humidity
i think its making my hair..NOT smooth.
i still find it a little strange to come home and not have dogs running up to me, it just doesnt feel right. like something's missing, you know?
other than that, i'm having tons of fun eating all kinds of food (i gotta slow down there, i really am getting chunky) SHOPPING (I LOVE THE VARIETY HERE...) AAAAND going to nice places like BING again. yes i like bing a LOT. and i love the chocolate banana smoothie. MMMmmmMm..
i dont know if i should feel bad for not spending lots of time at home and what not, but i've never really done that before, not even before i left for auckland earlier this year. i just dont wanna. its boring at home.
oh yes...i cant help but notice how rude some people are. shop people in particular. i'm a paying customer ok? geez..
but other than that, kuching seems to be pretty much the same...just with more buildings coming up.
did my eyebrows the other night. i'm quite happy with the results, but i still feel that i prefer threading. its faster i think. might go for a pedicure soon. pretty toes are a MUST!
AND i wanna go to the beach. anyone wanna go too?
11.21.07 (9:34 pm) [
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its raining so much
so here i am back in kuching and its raining a LOT. it was alright around noon when it was cloudy and all, but then now it just seems like it POURS! its NUTS!! how am i gonna wear my pretty shoes???
but overall things are alright at home. i need to make duplicate keys for the house since i'm out and about pretty late usually. i guess thats one of the sucky things about living with your parents again after being on your own for a while. i have to tell them where i'm going, with who, etc etc... "its not that iain is it??" oh GOD. i really am tempted to tell them he's a gay buddhist who has a huge crush on the HOFF. :P no i wont. thats just too evil. even for me.
methinks the humidity may be quite good for my skin actually. no overdrying, and so on. its not bad. and the FOOOOOD!
i realised i forgot how to order things last night. we were out and i wanted sio bee...then...i stood there like an idiot thinking "how do i order?". MORON! thankfully iain ordered the satay so i didnt have to deal with being stupid ordering the satay :P
i saw some pictures from my friend's summer break. i have to say..new zealand looks a whole lot more appealing in summer than kuching does at the end of the year. i am a teensy weensey bit jealous, simply cause they got good weather and I AM STUCK IN THE RAAAAAIN :(
oh yes, i have a new cat. if it were up to me, i'd call him SLINKY MALINKY because he's quite looong and black. and he's got a long tail. he's pretty heavy for a cat his size...i guess you call that being dense.
there's a STUPID stain on the nice shirt i'm wearing. it doesnt help that the shirt is white and the stain is GREY...UURRGGHH!!!
anyhooooo....im just waiting for this rain to stop so i can go out and get my keys duplicated and find new speakers for my laptop.
here's to hoping the weather's good where you are.
11.17.07 (12:30 am) [
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hungry. broke. aching.
i am BROKE. i have just enough money to go home and i'm out of food. THANKFULLY bumika invited me and some friends over to her place for dinner since she is celebrating diwali. (OH THANK GOD!) i still have food (if you count frozen food) but i'm just too lazy to get up and cook.
and i sprained my back yesterday (doesnt that make me sound so old?). i was packing and had to weigh my bag several times and suddenly there was a pull in my lower back area. i guess that means i'm not lifting loads properly. its not so painful where i cant take a few steps and have to go OOOOOWWWW!! i just cant be lifting more things today, or bending over backwards trying to act all limber...or dancing, or sitting hunched over this laptop :( no freakey-deakey moves. but is ok. its only temporary.
GOD I"M STARVING!!
maybe after the exam i should go along queen street with somebody's guitar and sing for a meal.
kesian kan.
11.08.07 (9:03 pm) [
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GOING HOME
the first installation of my packing up stuff is up on multiply.
knock yourselves out :P
the link is there under OTHER BLOG with the rest of the links
11.07.07 (5:10 am) [
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wow
its tuesday, the 6th of november 2007, and its 1805 hours where i am. my mask is expiring today, my bread would have expired by tomorrow and this time next week i'll be back in kuching. it all seems a little surreal. i've been here for a whole academic year and now i'm preparing to pack up and go back for the summer. i'm a little sad, but at the same time, i'm still very excited to go home again.
i'm doing laundry for the last time here :( now waiting for the clothes in the dryer. its about time really, since i cant recall the last time i did any laundry. yes, i'm gross like that.
its been one helluva year. but its done now. and truthfully speaking, i cant be bothered with the last paper. there's just so many things to be done. there's still a little bit of shopping (HUZZAH!!) to do tomorrow, i got my NONOS doll (FINALLY! i'll post pics on my multiply since she is such a cutie) i've got a ton of packing to do. i get this feeling in my last 48 hours here i wont be sleeping much, or at all.
WARNING: the following bit might get a tad emo. proceed with care.
for the most of this year, my heart has been stuck in kuching. its not to say that i dont enjoy being here. i love being on my own and making decisions for myself without having to deal with my parents. its quite liberating. methinks it could be due to me missing iain so much. we are in constant contact but there are times when i just need to hold his hand to feel a bit better. and i couldnt even have that. i know there were times when he needed me to be there too and he couldnt have that either. and now that i'm going back, we wont have to deal with this nonsense. at least for a while. no more international calling cards, no more waiting for each other on ym, no more bad cell-phone operator services to deal with for a while.
when we first started out, i couldnt believe what was happening. it just felt so amazing. we both knew that not everyone was as lucky as us. i still dont know what i did to deserve him :)
TOLD YOU IT WAS EMO.
i just miss him a lot. and i cant believe i'm going to see him next week! after so long.
i cant wait. :)
11.05.07 (9:16 pm) [
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shopping spreee
in the second time in one week, i have gone SHOPPING!! god i love shopping. OH its so fun getting new stuff! and i didnt get them all for myself this time - i went with the intention of buying people things :) and i spent a LOT of money. and got new shoes! there was an offer where if you buy more than $19.95 worth in shoes, you can get another pair of shoes for a dollar..well, the shoes are a specified type, but still. i got new shoes! worth a dollar! and they're CUTE!!
i got stuff for people :)
also stocked up on cosmetic supplies for summer in a LUSH-free malaysia :( boo hoo.. i spent a BOMB there today, but i believe its worth it. why, OH WHY is there no LUSH in malaysia??
i'm going to have to start packing real soon. i leave in about a week!
i cant wait to go shopping at home too :P
11.03.07 (2:26 am) [
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single digits, baybeeee...
so in just about 9 days i'll be on my flight to singapore. i've only just realised that its going to be a REALLY long journey. and the fact that i'm transitting in sydney for 6 hours and then in singapore overnight-ish kinda just adds to the amount of time. i'm not sure about bringing back those masks anymore (i'm sorry if i cant, rachel) especially with the travel hours being so long like that. but who knows, i might just pull it off.
money for work last week just came in and i'm...pretty loaded :) OH YE GODS OF MONEY BE PRAISED!!
man..this also means the exam is actually tomorrow and i still need to prepare for 2 more questions. and come sunday i have to start packing.
its 4 am and i cant sleep. there's GOT to be better things to do than raid the vending machines downstairs at this time. i could sleep, i know. but its not kicking in yet. maybe listen to some mellow-ish lenny for a while. some of his slower, kinda funk-type songs are, as perez hilton would put it, ZEXY. think along the lines of "I Belong to you", "Again", "Stillness of heart" and (even) "if you cant say no"...very VERY zexy. ya know what i mean? light a few candles with a special someone...get the lenny mooseek goin...(yes i am cheesey like that) get the intimate setting going. get the sloooow, intimate dance going..and just soak up each other's company...OH so zexy. team that up with a few slow numbers from JET (yes, a few of their songs are good), and a few from the dolls of GOO GOO. but i really like I BELONG TO YOU by lenny. at this point sade gets a little cheesey even for me. but i like BY YOUR SIDE. i'm just oozing the cheese now eh? :P
everybody grab someone special and sing along now
I belong to you...and you...you belong to me too
You make my life complete...you make me feel so sweet.
if you have never listened to the song. YOU MUST DO SO NOW. it is imperative for the development in your appreciation of ZEXY-ness, and ability to discern ZEXY from trashy. go youtube it or something. close your eyes and let the ZEXY take over.
if you've got more ideas for ZEXY songs. please, let me know.
11.01.07 (8:25 am) [
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