i dont care what the reason may be, i paid for one whole sem of internet usage and i am pissed because i am not enjoying one whole sem of internet usage. friendster is screwing up and i cant send a message to my friend and if you're wondering how in the world i'm posting this up if i have problems with the internet connection from my room, well i'm in my flatmate's room, GENIOUS. yes, i spell it with an O. i prefer it that way. OH SHOCK SHOCK HORROR you linguists.

yes, i am in auckland at this moment. had a great "cultural" weekend, i have to say. what did i do? well there was the skycity starlight symphony thing to raise funds for the children's hospital at the auckland domain on saturday night that had awesome fireworks. why did it have to be so cold that night?? sunday was great. there was the jazz in the park and people got up and started dancing, then for the heck of it..actually it was the attraction of the words "ALL YOU CAN EAT FOR $4" on the poster that drew us to a hare krishna meeting. after that was wine and cheese night at the railway campus.

here are some things i have discovered about myself over the weekend:

1. i will NEVER give up my meat. vegetarian kebabs SUCK. we have so many different kinds of animals on this planet - we should eat some of them. and they taste pretty good too. especially as sausages.
2. i like the cheese with the blue stuff..or was it green? my friend said they were mushrooms..little mushrooms, but i think she meant to say fungus.
3. i think i like jazz
4. fireworks are always cool
5. RUN RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN out of a *insert religious meeting where you feel out of place here. me and aud actually ran out of the hare krishna meeting and then put our shoes on outside before running, and not stopping till we reached the sanctuary of wine and cheese. so what if the skateboarders across the road were staring? its CULTURAL.
6. sausages are great.
7. walking uphill can kill a hangover pretty fast.  yep.
8. i love getting free stuff.

word of advice: try not to go through your first day of anything, especially uni, being partially or completely hungover. its hard enough to find your way around on its own and dashing across campus without going "oh god i hope nothing pisses me off today cause i dont have the patience to deal with that".

i wanted to watch heroes this evening but ended up watching a ton of other stuff. and because of the kiwi ads i have a kiwi narrative voice in my head. leave me be already!

oh, the red hot chilli peppers are going to perform in auckland at the vector arena in april. the vector arena's right next door to the railway campus!

i'm starting to learn to cook. basic simple stuff. but i bought thai oyster sauce so to kill that flavour i've had to up the other ingredients like GINGER...i think my ginger chicken kicks ass. from the inside, muahaha.

oh yes, there's a resident admin here who looks like mohinder suresh from heroes. i think he got drunk faster on wine and cheese night tho. faster than me. what a loser :P

there are so many malaysians here at the railway campus. i am soo moving out in my second year.

its so bloody warm tonight. feels really stuffy.

i miss iain. a lot. somebody tell him that.

it sucks being apart. we both knew this wouldnt be easy, and i knew that myself. it just feels so unfair. there's all these little things that are happening and i want him to be here with me sharing them. i know its good to have your own life aside from being a "WE" but i barely have a "WE" life now. i know there'll be a time when i will see him again, but i want to see him now. i want to talk to him and i want to laugh with him and have silly discussions that somehow manage to make me think and i want to hold his hand.

it is not fair that i cannot have all that.

it is not fair that we cant have that.

i dont want to wait for that. god damn i hate that we cant have time together. i hate it.

i miss him hugging me and i miss feeling safe when he does. and i miss getting all the onions from his food cause he knows i like them so much. i miss him telling me things about cars and music and movies and lines from movies.

i even miss his dogs. they're nice.

and the time difference sucks too. i'm 5 bloody hours ahead of him.

i miss him asking "you ok?"

there's the little things like "oh i just recently downloaded this album and ..." and he did this funny growl thing where he went "grr.."

oh god somebody kick me already. or at least a drink..i dont need much by the way.

stupid sunny hill ice cream.

stupid new zealand ice cream that tastes like stupid sunny hill ice cream.

it really hurts being apart and not having the luxury of spending time together and growing closer when you do.

i want to be with him so bad right now.

its been a blogging drought. i'm glad i'm back on this island, and the first thing i did when i arrived was SHOP! bodyglove had this great offer and i got some pretty new stuff.

what a lot of things have happened over the past 5 weeks. i'm so relieved this phase of my life is over, but this is just the beginning of my studies so this relief is short lived.

flight to auckland is on feb 13th at 10.30 pm. we'll be transitting in sydney and arrive in auckland on the 14th. so much for doing anything for valentines, but i was never really one to mark that day anyways.

this may very well be my last blog entry while i'm still in langkawi. after this it'll be a few days in kuching and then it'll be off to auckland.

i wish i didnt have to leave so soon.

well, i need to rush, there's group discussion for some presentation idea the lecturer pulled out of her ass at the last minute. she's a really nice lady and her enthusiasm is infectious, but she just wont give up on finding things for us to do!

after that there'll be some shopping to do. thank god my portfolio and essay are completed :)

this time tomorrow i'll be in the LCCT in KL waiting for my flight to kuching. HURRAY!

time to go back to the apartment.

my next blog entry could very well be when i'm in auckland.