i'm actually not in a very uplifted mood cause i realised i'm too oblivious for my own good. WHY? hmmm...

i got sick of the old font... here's a poem in a book i have, i forget who wrote it:

to amuse
emus
on warm summer nights,

kiwis
do wiwis
from spectacular heights.

i dont exactly know what a wiwi is, but i imagine a kiwi up in the air doin loop-de-loops. cute poem, dont you think?

here are some things you wont want to hear your dentist say right before he starts doing things in your mouth:

• "i'll give thee bloody teeth" (Antony and Cleopatra)
• "there's daggers in men's smiles...muahahahaha" (macbeth)

last night my roomies and i found out that people from as far as the toilet could hear the details of our conversation. (Oh NO) and we spent last night playing cards, watching tv, and playing cards again. there are some interesting letters written in on malaysiakini but i'd paste those up. i'm quite jaded.

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i hate this phase..its like withdrawal symptoms or something cause i miss him so much. i think its worse this time cause i actually can admit how i feel for him.

now i'm thinking i'm such a doofus cause i didnt tell him all this when i had the chance.

but then again, i needed some time to think and really understand myself and what i wanted and how i felt and what i was so afraid of.

if there's anything important that needs to be said, i'd rather tell it to him face to face.

i dont know if i can wait till may to tell him.

i dont know if HE can wait till may.

i dont know if he will WAIT.

right now some really annoying lyrics are floating around in my head....

Love wont wait forever and a day
Love must live in the here and now,
dont ask me how i know
love takes time, but you've been taking too long
time never waited for anyone
dont wait too long or I"LL BE GONE...

can someone help me see the silver lining?

second post for the day..i'm not going to put any money on how long radio silence will last, cause i'll probably cave. and i bet aud had that in mind when she read my last entry. haha..am i that predictable?

anyways. syriana was boring. maybe there was a spectacular twist at the end, but since we didnt get to see the end, i'm going to conclude it was a boring film. right now jamie foxx's song "unpredictable" is in my head..its getting irritating.

we're going out for dinner later, hope it doesnt rain though. rule of thumd when it comes to eating here : THERE CAN NEVER BE TWO GOOD MEALS IN A DAY. that means :

• if lunch was good, dinner will suck.
• if dinner was sucked, supper will not.
• but just because dinner sucked does not mean you can predict with confidence that supper will be good or that lunch was heavenly.
• nonetheless, most times here, the best part of the meal is the FRUIT.

anyways, my blog turned up in a search for alliegonenuts. wow, who actually remembers what my blog is called? i mean, the banner doesnt even say it. nonetheless, WELL DONE to that person, whoever thou art. you deserve GOOD VIBES your way. here you go!  

exams are right around the corner. i'm worried i might crack under the pressure.

last night i cried thinking about my friend's little puppy that passed away during the break. she was SO small and SO CUTE..he wanted to name her MONGO, but i thought he should've named her TINY, cause she was. i swear, i've seen cats bigger than she was. and if she had grown up, she would've been HUGE. i dont remember what breed she was, but i call it the four-eyes dog, cause they tend do have brown dots above their eyes, but if i had to guess, it might have been a rottweiler..or a doberman (like the dog in Madonna's video FROZEN) she had a really long tail, and her neck was scarcely the width of my watch and was 3 fingers wide..her nose was 1 finger broad and her tail was the width of my little finger. unbelievable, i actually remembered her dimensions.

thing that hit me the hardest was that i told her i loved her the last time i saw her.

after that she was gone.

then we went out with his friends, and i had no idea what they were talking about. i pretty much shut them out. almost cried several times when they were talking.

i'm worried i may have lost him..and i dont blame him.

funny though, i throw up on him, he falls for me...

ALL HAIL THE PUKE-FEST EXTRAVAGANZA

maybe i scared him away..

ah, the irony of life.

no word from him, i give him RADIO SILENCE. evil, no?

if he's lost interest after i've been honest about my insecurities and doubts with him then i dont think its a loss to me. its not like i dont have reasons for them, i mean, if he cheated on his ex with ME, and told ME he loved me FOUR DAYS after he met me WHILE he was cheating on his ex, i think i very well have a reason to be insecure and doubtful. plus he used to never contact me or pay attention to me. but then he could shower me with attention and I MISS U's and what not. my fear is that if he can turn 180 degrees and lavish all this attention on me from never doing so, he can trun another 180 degrees and take it all back.

lets think of something else.

my friends and i have a farewell thing planned for ourselves. looking forward to that.

okay, class now. we're watching SYRIANNA. its george clooney!

bye all.

hello all.. according to my friends, the teacher who picked on me for my "inappropriate" shoes was on lookout at the staffroom yesterday. if i went in i'd probably shot on sight, HAHAHAHAHA!!! i actually got my friends to play my parents if they want to talk to them about my shoes (i mean, what psycho cares about shoes??)

last night i got to catch up with an old friend. its been a while since i last talked to him, and there were interesting news to trade.

last night's dinner was all about making fun of staff and admin. i think thats my favorite past time here - making fun of staff and admin. technically, we are being bullied. so in retalliation to that teacher, i've hit back, although in a very passive-aggressive way. we could:

punch out for him at 9 every day
so by the month's end he'll have no pay

target his car
so he wont travel far

when he's telling me off, i'll act all confused
whats worse than a victim who hasnt a clue

i might be his colleague in the not-so-far future
he better watch out for his son and his daughter
(okay, i'm not that evil)

i have a theory. maybe the staff and admin are bored. so they think "HEY, lets pick on THEM".
geez, get a life already.

everyday my hate for this college grows,
it fills out my brain and comes out my nose.
from "inappropriate shoes" to "inappropriate shorts"
this college recieves my spite and my snorts

i might not be the world's best poet,
but nothing beats handing in work and being shouted
-at for my shoes, as though i'm a dog
Man with Bad Skin - i respect thee not.

ta-da! bye all. back to life in this college as a shoe-fugitive. its so bad the campus is so small..sigh. lets see if i live with tales to tell.. 

Nazri’s statement a threat
D
Mar 23, 06 4:32pm

Referring to your report Don't incite Muslims, warns Nazri, I am curious if the same rationale would apply to Muslims who incite the sentiments of non-Muslims?

Perhaps the esteemed minister should repeat the same warning the next time elected Muslim MPs use racially derogatory phrases in Parliament, or when Muslim firebrand politicians wave a kris in the air proclaiming their racial superiority. Or when many of the other incendiary statements are made in the name of institutionalised discrimination.

This latest statement from the minister is nothing more than a threat against all non-Muslim citizens designed to cow us into silent submission and acceptance.

How does a threat help promote racial integration, dear minister?

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Nation headed towards a theocracy
Nyamuk Media
Mar 23, 06 4:29pm

In 1993, PAS enacted Kelantan’s Hudud bill.

In 2000, our then prime minister proclaimed that Malaysia is an Islamic state.

In 2003, the Malaysian government provided confirmation to Suhakam that Malaysia is an Islamic state. Please refer to pg 285 of Suhakam’s 2003 annual report for this relevant justification.

In 2006, an independent commission said that nude ea- squats were not ‘syariah compliant’. The Attorney-General’s Chambers now has a unit that is sifting through Malaysia’s laws to ensure that they are all syariah compliant.

Also in 2006, the minister in the prime minister’s department threatens non-Muslims with legal action for utterances on to Islam or Muslims which may be deemed (using what criteria?) inciting the latter.

And again in 2006, policewomen, regardless of faith, are compelled to wear a tudung at all official events.

Our nation’s relentless march towards a theocracy is gaining speed.

--> both articles taken from malaysiakini.com

as a non-muslim, i am really fearing for my rights as a nation that once defined itself as moderate