Probability Density Function

for the record, i can be really dense at times. i dont pick up on hints,open my mouth too soon and miss insults as well as any other encoded message people may send me..its not that bad but the part that sucks about it is that my brain goes into Pending Mode when things count..like picking up on insults fast enough and hitting back with something just as mean. instead of going "OH..i get it.HEY, thats MEAN!". what an idiot.

the whole class will be watching macbeth tonight..as in Shakespeare's Macbeth. surprisingly, i'm actually looking forward to it. i'm usually not so into this sorta artsy-fartsy nonsense. BUT since i'm going to be tested on it....i LOVE it. (Blech)

question:how do you know if someone is taking you seriously?
i already said i can be dense..so i cant help it if i am.

...bring on the tbucks
09.08.05 (2:18 pm)   [edit]

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appearance counts, right?

RIGHT. appearance apparently counts BIG time. i recently cut my hair, and (of course) have been getting tons of comments and lotsa compliments cause it..looks better, even if i do say so myself.


so the Jackass that i was getting all flustered over has paid me more attention just because i look different. ITS THE SAME GIRL! and its kinda sad cause before this i had to scramble for a scrap of his time. yes, part of me IS happy that i am getting his attention, but that makes me wonder..didnt he see me before this? does he just like the girl with the heels and the hair that he went out with? i mean, fine, he has never seen that side of me before. but thats just so shallow. and its mean.


i know appearance counts, but he was NOT the most nicely dressed person that night. he hadnt shaved in a week or so, he needed a haircut and he hadnt showered. car was nice though. :P


back to school. i miss home already.

09.07.05 (2:09 pm)   [edit]

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back to reality

so the break is over, and life carries on as usual in its very special, mundane way. GREAT...and i hate classifying this entry under MISCELLANEOUS cause it makes me think of Miscellaneous Exercises for..maths (Yuck) not only did i NOT get a thing in maths today, i'm drowning in homework. and i doubt i'll actually do any of it, so the maths teacher can go screw herself for all i care.
break was fun. lets talk about that. met up with so many old school friends and reconnected with others.
AND i met up with him, on the LAST night of my break, and i think i like him. a lot...and i think im nuts. he can be a bit of a jackass at times, but for the most of it, he's alright. :) what sucks is that i hardly ever get to see him. and i've just realised that i've never really gotten to talking to him..like TALKING cause if me and him happen to be alone, most probably it wont be talking thats happening. and even if i didnt have any feelings for him whatsoever, it wont change the fact that i like being around him.
thing is, i dont know if he likes me as much as i do him...yeah, as much as i do him. what a phrase :p its like i always have to clamour for his attention and he has to squeeze me in somewhere. or he can just squeeze me, i kinda like that. ok, i gotta stop this. AL, GET A GRIP! (that lil voice in my head just said "make SURE you get a good grip, girl".) AL, STOPPIT!! all i want from him is his time and attention..some affection thrown in there would be nice too. apparently his family is supposed to be pretty well off..thats what i hear. but i dont care how well off they are, it still sucks that i hardly ever see him. i like him - PERIOD.

I THINK IM NUTS.
09.04.05 (4:49 pm)   [edit]

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